A creative man is motivated by the desire to achieve, not by the desire to beat others. – Ayn Rand
Lately I have been struggling a lot with personal creativity. I have no desire to sit down and sketch, I can’t motivate myself to paint something and I don’t pick up my camera enough. I am becoming increasingly aware that I need to work harder to change this because don’t get me wrong, I do miss sketching, painting and taking photos of beautiful things. My boyfriend, Jon Brommet, has unintentionally motivated me to start working harder and developing my skills as an artist and illustrator and painter since he has recently started working on his own portfolio. I hope that this motivation sticks.
The hardest part I am realizing is why there is such a lack of creativity and personal drive. I can’t quite narrow it down. I am starting to realize that maybe it is my choice of career. Choosing to be in a career that requires me to creative all day may be taking a toll on my own personal creativity. I think this is a lesson I am just starting to realize and something I need to work on overcoming. I need to learn to separate my personal art to the work that I do in my career.
That being said, today I decided to start a personal challenge, or an early New Year’s resolution. I am going to sketch once a day in my Moleskin sketchbook for a year. I will carry it everywhere with me and look for things that inspire me. If I can’t find something that day, I will go back to the basics and draw something simple like fruit or an object. I want to develop a style of illustration and work on my talent. Once that year is over, I will start a new challenge, but for now I have a lot of sketchbooks laying around to fill. I sure hope that I can keep up with it 
